Agony

I feel like I am losing myself, just to pray for somehelp.
Because everything I do is something that is not good enough for you.
God, what I would do to have your approval.
This pain I feel because im not part of the way you want me to be.
Makes me weaker everyday.
Everyday I wake I ache of pain and sadness because I did not make you smile.
Every night I sleep in agony at the thought of losing you.
I no longer want to hurt you.
I'll give it all, just to know your happy.
It hurts to know that I would do this because I love you.